When I quit swimming, I lost everything. I lost my “family”, I lost the one place I could be myself, and I lost my confidence. I have never been so insecure in my life. My body is not the way it should look. My whole life I have had the perfect flat stomach with the line, thin legs, thin arms, nothing on my body was fat. I was toned. Now its not. and I think I look disgusting. But starting next week Im going back to my old swim team. Swimming from 4-8 monday through friday, then 7-2 on Saturdays. Im so excited. I missed feeling completely dead after a 7-2 practice. or feeling so tired in the middle of practice but having to push though cause your team needs you. I miss being a part of something. But I get to be a part of it again. I can’t wait!
